I don't think I have changed that much. Hence why on a Friday night I was sitting in my living room watching Merlin on my laptop.

My two best friends had gone out before me, to parties where I knew no one and to run after a boy, so I didn't really fancy going. I asked them to text me when they went to my friends apartment so I could go over, but alas no text came and I continued to watch Merlin.

It was a bit of a bummer on a Friday night. I felt slightly let down but the thing is I could have just got up and gone myself. I could have just said "Screw it." Stood up and gone. But I didn't. Why? I think a big part of it is that I am British. I only go to things when I am invited. My Spanish friends have no qualms swanning into places uninvited day after day. However, I am afraid I am being too pushy or needy or annoying and I never want to be viewed as the annoying one. I also don't want people to be so used to my company they get fed up with it. I have spoken to a few people here and I know that sometimes that is the case in International House. People go and see them 24/7 and they never get a break or a chance to miss them. During finals week especially, some of my friends had lots to do whilst others had less to do, and the ones with lots to do would get frustrated when disturbed by those with less to do and I never want to be the disturber. I never want to remembered in that light or associated anywhere near it.

Anyway, less of the sad stuff. More fun things.

The girls and I have planned to meet up when I get home. Literally the day after. And I can't wait. The difference between cultures is so big and I have only really started to notice it. I miss my English girlies.

Two days
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